Aimee Copeland leaves the hospital

July 2, 2012 at 11:57 pm (aimee copeland, choice, coping, creative writing, good news, gratitude, hope, living, love, motivation, optimism, support system, why blog) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

yes Aimee went to rehab today and she will be there for 6-8 months.  I hope she continues to be optimistic and her support system stays in place.  maybe that is what really makes the difference.

looking back it occurs to me that my blog has many entries focused on others without much tie in to myself.  with some reflection, really not that much:), it is clear how that has happened.  my life has been about others.  as a nurse, there is the patient.  as a therapist there is the patient and even as a professor/teacher it is about the students.  most of us have others in our life that we give our love and support to.  mom’s and dad’s  have children, spouse’s have likewise, children have parents that may need their care.  parenting never ends if you are lucky and then there are the grandchildren.

there has been little time to think about my own situation.  situation is an odd word for this, not so odd if it is understood how i refer to my multi-system failure that landed me on life support in ICU as “the event.”  it seems tedious to refer to the event in medical terms or what would feel like a bit of melodrama at this point.  although when i read of others and their struggles it reinforces my belief that we all have a story.  as we go through our day we have a choice to have faith, or spin in uncertainty that can make us suffer beyond our physical self.

recently though I have had things on my mind to write about, however, two things stopped me.  one is the awareness of how this blog has changed from its original concept. second, is the awareness that i am not a writer.  it’s ok. to know what our gift is, is a blessing.  when reading other blogs i am in awe of the creativity and flow of the story.  the new goal for me is to remember and follow my true purpose in writing at all.  as for the other it is my intent to be ok, really ok, with my limits as a writer. this was never meant to be anything more than a personal blog.  future posts may be boring to some who now read my postings.  there are so many more interesting people out there.  those that become bored please do not feel the need to comment on said boredom.

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Aimee Copeland Breaks And Pleads For Painkillers

June 28, 2012 at 3:07 pm (aimee copeland, bravery, christina symanski, coping, death with dignity, meditation and pain, pain medication, Uncategorized) (, , , , )

for weeks now aimee copeland has been in the news.  about a week ago the headline for the Huffington Post stated that Aimee had  now asked for the morphine doctors had been offering her for the pain she was experiencing.  here is a little about her if you  have not heard before now. though her father has not characterized her decision as “pleading” that is how the headline ran.

It was nearly seven weeks ago that Copeland sustained a cut on her calf during a fall from a homemade zip line over a west Georgia river. She was diagnosed with necrotizing fasciitis, an infection from a rare flesh-eating bacteria. Doctors were forced to amputate her left leg, right foot and hands. The Georgia student, 24, originally refused pain medications due in part to her personal convictions and graduate-school background in holistic pain management techniques. Her preferred method of dealing with the pain was meditation, but that has done little to assuage the sting of skin grafts and muscle flaps that were necessary

“I am blessed to be able to have a challenge that not many others get to have,” Copeland’s father wrote, quoting Aimee. “I am blessed to have the capacity to share my experience with others and have a chance to improve the quality of someone else’s life. I’m blessed to be different.”

when reading this short article my mind wandered back to the young woman who through an accident of adventure had become a quadriplegic. this young woman had been sort of the poster girl for the disabled.  she was an artist, gave speeches, was active in the christopher reeve organization and seemed to be moving on with her life “bravely” as some might say.  tragically she ended her life.  she decided her life was not worth living the way it was.  she was in pain and yet it would seem the psychic pain was perhaps the breaker.  the organizations for the right to die with dignity used this as an example of why we need to change our laws.  the disabled were outraged that she was used in this way.  there is such difference between  someone who is terminally ill, has no chance of recovery, and someone who is disabled. this does not in my opinion make the case for death with dignity.  it was her  dignity at issue for her, however, was her inability to accept dignity in a different form the heart of the problem?

it is my deepest wish that Aimee is allowed to be weak without making headlines.  if asking for pain medication is a weakness at all.  meditation is a tool to be used and as corny as it sounds it is just one tool in the tool box.  her family is suffering as is this young woman. she made a decision out of youthful exuberance and is now paying a heavy price.  my heart goes out to her and if i could say anything to her it would be to embrace her tears as well as her joys.  sometimes bravery is crying and accepting the pain medication.

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