lupus?? calabassis(?) frog jumping contest

September 7, 2015 at 2:56 am (Uncategorized) (, , , , , , , , , )

froghurrayanimatethe following message came from someone who works with my new primary care doctor.

Hello Sandra, It looks like Tanya has already scheduled your appointment with Dr. Hanley? The ANA is the preliminary blood test that we use to check for a autoimmune disease such as Lupus. This is the reason that we referred you to Rheumatology. We will be more than happy to go over this in more detail when you come for your appointment with Dr. Hanley if you have any additional questions. THANKS and have a great day!

so now i could have lupus?? it might just be the rheumatoid arthritis.  well not likely but i like to think that may be it.  angie looked it up and really there is nothing new that i am not already experiencing.  that is the good news for me i think.

he has gone to bed and now we have our girl time.  we have certain shows we watch that he wouldn’t enjoy.  it is our time to just hang and talk smack frankly.  we also just have this time when we are together and no words are needed.  one of the best things is we have a similar sense of humor.  we know that we would never say these things to others as they might not understand that we could laugh at some of the things that make us cry laughing so hard.

angie asked me about my pain and what happens when i am unable to wake enough to get up.  she wants to understand, she came to our room more than once trying to stir me.  one time she read me an article about washing blue jeans.  her ex boyfriend would tell her he didn’t need to wash his jeans.  my own man has baffled me with this argument for not washing his jeans as often as i would think necessary.  he is otherwise a clean man and dresses very well when leaving the house.  i can remember basic facts of this article, i can remember her voice.  i love her voice! it is so expressive and usually has this hint of laughter just waiting to break out.

i tell her briefly what it is like to lay there and drift off when there is a part of me that screams at this body to respond.  get up….. get moving…. the day is passing and you are not participating.

me- you know what i really think about this new problem? it is much like the frog jumping contest they have in california each year.  you know they line these frogs up and one may start jumping straight ahead while the others may go off in other directions or just sit still and make no move.  well those frogs are my diseases or disorders.  one is congestive heart failure, another is kidney failure and so on with the liver failure, internal bleeding and now we add in lupus.  one of them is going to cross the line and kill me.  we were laughing and imitating those frogs!  then i said – you know i am so relieved to have you here and be able to laugh about this stuff.  as we are laughing she says “yeah, us and our demented sense of humor.”

well i would rather have a demented sense of humor than to be crying over this journey.  now we just have to decide which frog we are going to bet on.  anyone want to place a bet?

as the office worker said in her message, Thanks and have a great day!

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